01:05am, 30102010.
Do you see the title? Well, another way of saying it is... - IT KILLS!
What the heart says," Stone cold. Heart-ache. Nervous breakdown. Regardless of these feelings that are tormenting me right now, a silent voice inside me still says, it'll be okay. (Hence, the title for this post.)"
I don't wish to feel this way. Neither did I ask nor even thought about this trivial quandary.
Why? Why does this have to happen?! This kind of 'cobaan' really sucks. I do believe what you said. And I do have faith. From human's perspective, patience is a virtue. But for every human, it has it's boundaries too.
I'm very sad that this happened. But when I said I have faith, I can't back down. This challenge really tests me. But does this ever fall upon you? From my view, I may see that you are chilled and preoccupied from the things that you may be more sensitive to. Have you ever thought that expressing your heart out at your own will, helps me?
At times, I feel like it's a one man show. This shan't be the way. Better yet, it should never exist at all! I do care so much as you can see. But other times, I feel like saying,' I love you. But I don't have to like you right now.'
The whole point of being as one, is to compromise. And just because it's been so long that we've made us through, neither things nor feelings have to change. Like for real, why does changes have to happen? Listen now. IT.DOESN'T.HAVE.TO!
For this to happen, the only way I could think of is to continue being there for you.Through thick and thin like how I'd promised. And I do hope that if you don't register me being here, let me know.
- It is not worth crying for the pain if it affects those who are earnest to others.
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